It is with a heavy heart that I write today's Manic Monday post. I am supposed to be 11 weeks pregnant as of tomorrow. Unfortunately, after spotting all weekend, I went to the doctor today to discover a blighted ovum. There is a sac, but no baby. The sac even stopped growing at 7 weeks, 6 days. I have already gone through my crying period this morning. Hubby and I talked about it a lot today and we plan to try again soon. I think we are going to leave how soon up to a Higher Power to decide when it is time. My only hope is that it doesn't take us a year like it did after my first miscarriage to conceive Fuss. I was/am devastated by this loss. However, I know that there was nothing that I did or didn't do (or that Hubby did/didn't do) that caused this. It happened and life moves on. Honestly, I think the hardest part is telling the family. They were all so happy for us and now they are saddened along with us as well.
I am still planning on helping out with the event in April/May (when I would have been due), but in a different way. I am still working on the planning of that part, but will let you all know when it works out. Until then just keep us in your thoughts over the next few days. This is going to be a tough week.